1. bc so far all that ive experienced tbh isn’t some great story but a pretty mediocre life in terms of comparison to the non existent great drama tragedy of life

2. we keep talking about stories, how do i represent myself and others. what is real. i acknowledge that a lot of me is the escapism of what i do not want. in my total natural state i merely subsist is this even the right word? to relate is difficult and empathy needs resilience.

3. All of a sudden i am unable to make sense of a group of people sincerely caring about me and the only way to feel is to be honest with them. being honest doesnt feel good. i feel like i have disappointed people, and their image of me changes. I try to escape frm what is true and that deceit feels far worse

4. i need to be grounded. so much of what i see and do spreads out like the infinite web lol

take courage, stay. you are more important than you think. stay through the fire, and you will emerge as gold. and gold in its purity melts, you will not be hard as stone but flow as a river.

I need to get past my bad taste

I don't feel whole. I don't feel here.


Do not associate wholeness too much with existing/happiness; you are & there’s no cure for that. I don’t think “wholeness” is a permanent condition either or even a goal — experiencing your humanity is, giving yourself a chance to simply be is, occasionally coming to feel momentarily whole is

Trust the vibes you get, energy doesn’t lie.

(via wolf-cub)

(Source: shanharlin)

Sometimes you just feel like shit. Telling yourself you feel terrific and wearing a brave smile and refusing to give in to “negative thinking” is not only inaccurate—dishonest—but it can make you feel worse. Which makes perfect sense. If you want to feel better, you need to pause and ask yourself, better than what?

This is How, Augusten Burroughs (via monstreux)


Apparently it’s not socially acceptable for a man to invite another man out just for coffee or to go out for a meal, in case it’s perceived as a date. Like it’s fine if you wanna go to the pub and drink beer and have a chat but make it non-alcoholic and suddenly you’re not straight anymore? You can go to the cinema together but ONLY if it’s an action movie. You guys can’t even just go shopping with each other. Oh masculinity, so fragile, so strange. 

The best cure for one’s bad tendencies is to see them fully developed in someone else.

Alain de Botton (via monstreux)

I want to write a novel about silence. The things people don’t say.

Virginia Woolf (via quotationadmiration)